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Speak《我不再沉默》

Melinda Sordino begins her first year of high school feeling awful.

米蘭達‧索迪諾在心情慘淡之下展開了她高中生涯的第一年。

Everyone blames her for calling the cops on a summer house party.

大家都怪她在暑期的一場派對上打電話報警

Meanwhile, her former best friend, Rachel, hates her.

同時，她的前摯友瑞秋現在很討厭她。

As the year progresses, Melinda becomes more and more withdrawn.

這一年隨著時間推展，米蘭達愈來愈孤僻。

Her grades begin to suffer, and she often skips class to hide in a cleaner's closet.

她的成績開始變差，她也常翹課躲在打掃工具間裡。

Around school, she is often terrorized by Andy Evans, an older boy whom she calls "IT" in her diary.

在學校，她經常被安迪‧埃文斯恐嚇，而她在日記裡稱這名學長為「它」。

Melinda is so frightened of him that some days she doesn't go to school at all.

米蘭達害怕安迪到她有幾次甚至沒去學校上課。

Her teachers and parents believe something must be wrong with her.

她的老師跟爸媽都認為她一定是出了什麼問題。

However, she refuses to open up to them.

然而，她拒絕向他們敞開心胸。

Before long, Melinda can't even look at herself in her bedroom mirror, and she covers it up.

不久之後，米蘭達甚至害怕在房間內看見鏡中的自己，所以她將鏡子遮住。

The only place she feels any excitement is her art class.

她唯獨在美術課時才會流露出一絲興奮。

Her passionate teacher, Mr. Freeman, has asked her to create a year-long project based on a single word: "tree."

她的老師費里曼充滿熱情，他給了米蘭達一個為期一整學年的功課，並要她根據「樹」這個關鍵字來創作。

Other than that, though, she feels empty.

不過除此之外，她只感到很空虛。

 

blame（v.）

to blame sb./sth. (for sth.) （把某事）歸咎於某人／某事物

Don't blame me (= it is not my fault) if you miss the bus!　如果你沒趕上公車可別怪我！

Hugh blames his mother for his lack of confidence.　曉治把自己缺乏自信心歸咎於他的母親。

don't blame me 別怪我

（n.）責備

to get the blame (for sth.) （因某事）受到責備

Health officials put the blame for the disease on (= say that the reason for the disease is) poor housing conditions.

衛生官員們將該疾病的暴發歸咎於惡劣的居住環境。

We want to find out what happened, not to apportion blame (= to say someone or something was wrong).

我們想要弄清事情的真相，而不是要去怪罪誰。

 

take the blame引咎；認錯；對…負責

If anything goes wrong, I'll take the blame.出了問題我負責。

 

suffer

He suffered many humiliations before he became a football star. 他在成為足球名將前受過許多屈辱。

He suffered from poverty all his life. 他一生受貧窮之苦。

My father suffers from high blood pressure. 我父親有高血壓。

【受損害，受損失；變糟 +for/from】This scientific instrument suffered severely. 這部科學儀器受到嚴重損壞。

【受懲罰；被處決+for】He suffered for his offence. 他因自己的過錯而受到懲罰。

 

withdrawn（adj.）孤僻的；沈默寡言的

Following her son's death, she became quiet and withdrawn and rarely went out.

她兒子死後，她變得沉默寡言，也很少外出。

terrorize（v. ）恐嚇；使驚恐

 

passionate（adj）非常熱情的；極其感興趣的；情緒激昂的，熱情的

having very strong feelings or emotions

a passionate speech/ kiss/embrace熱情洋溢的演講/親吻／擁抱

The Italians are said to be the most passionate people in Europe.

據說義大利人是歐洲最富激情的民族。

The child's mother made a passionate plea for help.

那孩子的母親急切地向人們求助。

Joe is passionate about baseball (= he likes it very much). 喬非常喜歡打棒球。

 

Part 2

Speak

What nobody at school knows is that Melinda has a secret.

學校裡大家有所不知的就是米蘭達有個秘密。

Last summer, at the house party, she was raped by Andy Evans.

她在去年暑假的那場派對上被安迪‧埃文斯強暴了。

For months, she has not been able to accept that it happened.

過了好幾個月，她仍然無法接受這個事實。

However, when she finds out that Andy is dating Rachel,

然而，當她發現安迪正與瑞秋交往時

the past becomes much harder to ignore.

這段過往變得更加難以忽視。

Melinda goes to her childhood friend and tells her about the attack.

米蘭達去找她的兒時好友，並講出她被侵犯的這件事。

At first, Rachel is worried for Melinda.

一開始，瑞秋很擔心米蘭達。

When it's revealed that Andy was the attacker, though, Rachel says she is just jealous.

不過米蘭達一揭露是安迪侵犯她時，瑞秋卻說她只是在嫉妒。

In spite of this, she breaks up with Andy shortly after.

儘管如此，瑞秋過不久之後就跟安迪分手了。

Although her conversation with Rachel is difficult, Melinda doesn't back down.

雖然跟瑞秋講這件事很困難，米蘭達並沒有退縮。

She leaves anonymous warnings about Andy around the school.

她在學校到處留下有關安迪的匿名警告。

He suspects her, though,

不過安迪懷疑是她做的，

and tries to rape her again while she's in the cleaner's closet.

於是他在打掃工具間裡試著再度侵犯她。

This time, Melinda feels much stronger.

這次米蘭達比較堅強

She threatens Andy with a piece of broken glass

她拿著一個玻璃碎片威脅安迪，

and screams loudly enough for everyone to hear.

並大聲尖叫使大家都聽得見。

Word gets out about what happened, and she becomes a hero.

這件事情傳出去之後，她成了校園英雄。

Though Melinda cannot forget the past, she is finally able to move on.

雖然米蘭達無法忘掉過去，但她終於能接受現實並繼續向前了。

rape（v./n.）強姦(罪)

She was pulled from the car and raped.她被拉出車外，遭到強暴。

It's difficult to understand what causes a man to rape.很難理解是甚麼原因導致一個男人犯下強姦罪行。

He had committed several rapes.他多次犯下強姦罪。

He was convicted of rape.他被判犯有強姦罪。

 

anonymous （adj.）匿名的

The money was donated by an anonymous benefactor.

這筆錢來自一位不願透露姓名的捐贈者。

Police said an anonymous caller warned that a bomb was about to go off.

警方說有人打來匿名電話，警告一枚炸彈即將爆炸。

He received an anonymous letter threatening to disclose details of his affair if he didn't pay the money.

他收到一封匿名信，威脅說如果他不付錢，就把他的風流韻事都抖出來。

For reasons of personal safety, the informant wishes to remain anonymous.

為了自身安全，舉報人不希望透露姓名。

 

having no unusual or interesting features

【無特色的，無個性特徵的】He has a rather anonymous face.他相貌平平。

 

reveal（v.）揭露；洩露；透露

He was jailed for revealing secrets to the Russians. 他因為向俄國人洩密而被監禁。

Her biography revealed that she was not as rich as everyone thought.她的自傳透露她並非像大家所想像的那樣富有。

He would not reveal where he had hidden her chocolate eggs. 他就是不說他把她的巧克力蛋藏在哪裡了。

【使顯露；展現；顯示】A gap in the clouds revealed the Atlantic far below.從雲縫中可以看到遠在下方的大西洋。

 

reveal（n.）揭示

The final reveal of the new kitchen was a huge success. 最後大揭示的新廚房非常成功。

 

in spite of儘管；不顧，不管

In spite of his injury, Ricardo will play in Saturday's match. 儘管裡卡多有傷在身，星期六的比賽他仍然會出場。

 

in spite of

despite

although

even though

though

 

In spite of, despite（介系詞）

這兩個都是介系詞，所以後面接名詞、動名詞、或代名詞組成介系詞片語。

In spite of his success, John remained a humble man.

Despite being very smart, Jack does not work very hard.

Despite his injuries, John still finished the race.

Despite[介係詞] her illness[名詞], Helen went to school yesterday.

 

Despite the fact that she was sick, Helen went to school yesterday.

 

although, even though, though（連接詞）

連結詞，後面要接句子（句子的定義是有主詞、動詞）

They are coming next month, though I don’t know which day.

She walked home by herself, although she knew it was dangerous.

Mary hasn’t called, even though she said she would.

Although[連接詞] she[主詞1]  was[動詞1]  sick, Helen[主詞2] went[動詞2]  to school yesterday.

 

 

suspects

suspect[səˋspɛkt]（v.）懷疑…有罪，認為…有嫌疑

No one knows who killed her, but the police suspect her husband.

suspect[səˋspɛkt]（v.）懷疑，猜想，認為（某事有可能）

So far, the police do not suspect foul play罪行.

目前，警方沒有懷疑是謀殺案件。

We had no reason to suspect (that) he might try to kill himself.

我們沒有理由認為他會自殺。

"Do you think she'll have told them?" "I suspect not/so."

「你認為她會不會已經告訴他們？」「我想不會／會的。」

 

suspect[ˋsəspɛkt]（n.）嫌疑犯；可疑分子[C]

He is the chief suspect at present 目前他是頭號嫌疑犯

Word gets/is out 有消息說…；我聽說…

When word got out that the company was going to fire 50 employees, everyone was angry.

有消息傳出這家公司要開除50名員工，大家都感到很生氣。

 

Part 3

       

Laurie Halse Anderson's Speak is a powerful novel about rape and the serious trauma it causes.

洛莉．荷茲．安德森的《我不再沉默》是本極具影響力的小說，講述關於強暴案例以及其造成的後續心理創傷。

The story is written as a diary

這個故事原著是以日記呈現，

so readers can see how badly Melinda's attack has affected her.

好讓讀者體會到這件事對米蘭達的影響有多深。

After the attack, she can't trust anyone.

被強暴後，她無法信任任何人。

Worse, she is constantly reminded of the attack by Andy,

更糟的是，她無時無刻因為安迪的存在而想起那件事，

who is so scary she only refers to him as "IT."

她更是害怕安迪到只能以「它」稱呼他。

In the end, Melinda recovers from her trauma,

最後，米蘭達從她痛苦的經歷慢慢走出，

but only after she deals with the past.

前提是她有好好去面對那段過往。

Here, Anderson shows us the great strength it takes for rape victims to speak up.

安德森在此讓讀者見證性侵受害者踏出那一步大膽說出事實是需要極大的努力。

This is especially hard because others might not believe them,

這件事會特別困難的原因在於別人可能會不相信他們，

just as Rachel accuses Melinda of just being jealous.

就像瑞秋便指控米蘭達只是在嫉妒而已。

Despite the fact that 20 years have passed since Speak was written,

雖然《我不再沉默》這本小說出版已過了20年，

Melinda's story is still a reality for many people.

米蘭達的故事對很多人來說還是非常真實。

In 2017, for example, around 38 sexual attacks were reported every day in Taiwan.

舉例來說，在2017年內臺灣每天約有38件性侵案件的報案，

Many of these had happened on school campuses.

而很多都發生在學校校園內。

There are many voices like Melinda's around us.

我們身邊其實就有很多像是米蘭達一樣的人，

When they speak, we need to listen.

當他們願意開口說話時，大家必須認真傾聽。

 

trauma（n.）心理創傷；痛苦的經歷

severe emotional shock and pain caused by an extremely upsetting experience

精神創傷，心理創傷

the trauma of marriage breakdown

婚姻破裂帶來的心理創傷

He had psychotherapy to help him deal with his childhood traumas.

他進行了心理治療來醫治童年時代受到的心理創傷。

 

refer to sb/sth as...稱⋯為⋯

If you refer to someone or something as a particular thing, you use a particular word, expression, or name to mention or describe them.

You can refer to her as ma'am or miss

 

 

accuse sb of (doing)sth指責、指控某人做了⋯

He's been accused of robbery/murder.他被指控犯有搶劫／謀殺罪。

Are you accusing me of lying?你是在指責我撒謊嗎？

The surgeon was accused of negligence.

這名外科醫生被控怠忽職守。